Showing my brain off

I used to feel like I was supposed to dumb everything down. Then again I was always told I wasn't smart by people who were supposed to be there for me.. I was afraid to face any problems or issues that I caused..and I caused a lot. I lied all the time to cover my butt or I would just say I didn't know any better.. I always knew better but didn't care. I just always figured, all the dumb girls got away with everything so if I wanted to do whatever I want without consequence then I had to dumb it down. That only worked so much. I sure do feel stupid for doing it. I don't know why anyone would want to be perceived as ignorant. I sure am not an unintelligent human. I have proved that and I don't plan to stop any time soon.